Hello from Chengdu!

...Goddamnit, I can't even take a shower by myself. :( ...water heater
pressure thing wtf.

So, this is the beginning of my third day in Chengdu. I actually
arrived here exactly twelve hours late on Sunday, but I met some
really cool people on the way. I also got two free meals, a shower,
and 400 yuan for my trouble. (Thank you, China Eastern!)

So far, I feel very... disenchanted. I worked so hard to get here, and
I didn't expect anything more than I've already experienced. But I did
feel strong enough to deal with the same old crap in a new way; that
just isn't happening. I'm as frustrated as I was when I left a little
over a year ago. As per expectations, as used to I can get to being
here, no one here will change... not any time soon, anyway.

Many job opportunities are present here, but many people don't have
the proper visa. I have to find the right job within coming months,
...if... if, if, I can stand being here. So far, I don't mind it being
just a visit. Unless I can find some greater meaning within this space
that I haven't already discovered.

I don't have a vpn this trip, so I'm going to email this to myself and
use a friend's computer to post this. That could be a few hours.
Anyway, good night East Coast America. <3