Feeling Retrospective.

I was re-reading some of my old posts... I feel a little ashamed, as the picture I painted was not so positive. As I wrote, it was to people that know me. To anyone else, I probably just look bitter and inconvenienced. In truth, this past trip was much less positive of an experience than I anticipated, or even believed it to be at the time. I was incredibly lonely. 

There are a lot of bad smells in China. A lot of hygienic/safety inconsistencies as far as what we're used to in the U.S. But I don't really mind any of that. My lack of consistent internet really drove fear into me because it was my only lifeline... my only connection to home. But, I still feel as homeless as I ever have.

I'm currently residing in San Fernando Valley, in California; the people I'm staying with are a blessing to this earth. It's more comfortable than I've felt in a long time, but I don't see forever in it. It's nice to be able to rest in one place, to not be alone, to own yourself fully... I just love to be on the move. I hope to return to China, to visit India and Japan, South Africa, Egypt... when it's realistic to do so. 

I'll always have more love for the world than anger.  

More updates soon.