I haven't posted in a while. Nothing really to update on, except it's really cold today. It was yesterday as well, and I don't have a proper coat so I've been taking taxis everywhere. I also still have a cold/no voice.
I've been finding myself having more fulfilling interactions lately. I say "interactions" because they're not exactly conversations, since I'm generally unable to express myself as specifically as I would like in Chinese. But I've been talking to the right people, and pursuing the right things. I even quit drinking.
I'm still working on a more permanent stay here... but I am unsure of whether I'll come home for the holidays or not. Right now, I'm thinking not. Every time I think about home, and how I miss it, I remember I also don't have my own apartment, or a real job. I'd probably find myself back at my grandmother's house, scuttling about after gigs since I can't stand the thought of a consistent daytime schedule.
I want to make this my home for a while, and make my imminent return home a mere visit. I can't stand the idea of losing my mobility. There's no person, or job, that I want to settle down for. But I think it may be time to pursue the flight attendant idea.
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